you're still my only one. i'm half hoping you never ever read this. it'll just make things harder. i really wanna ask you if you still like me, but i'm fucking scared of hearing the answer. i'm still telling myself to quit thinking about this, but it isn't getting easier. i hate the way i'm feeling towards you. and i hate myself for feeling this way. doesn't really make sense huh. i think i loved you too much. but i don't think it was a mistake. i don't know.